I've been pretty pensive lately. My heart is beyond heavy.
Well, actually kind of a mixture of pensive, pissed and occasionally peaceful. I'm jumbled like that sometimes.
Through social media, plain ol media, conversations and friends....I keep seeing a repeating theme.
Division.
'Why are we allowing ourselves to be divided'
'Why don't we just pray and see the other side'
'People need to just....'
'People should.....'
I've even seen some post things like, 'This is what God wanted so people need to just trust God.'
That statement makes me cringe.
Please know that what follows is my heart. My experience and my truth. I have several posts I've been working on....writing and rewriting...struggling to express myself without cursing, screaming or taking off my earrings.
Do not try to convince me what I'm writing is 'wrong'. I'm willing to have conversation...and open to hear how you might see things....but I will not debate with anyone whether this is valid. It's just time to get these out or I am going to explode. I've written and rewritten a million blogs in the last few weeks...many of which were only appropriate to be thrown straight out because I was too pissed to be coherent and too disgusted to care.
But it's exactly where I'm at and fueling where I'm going. (figuratively people, I don't plan on moving)
What I got tonight??
The U.S. is not 'chosen'. God doesn't love the U.S. anymore or any less than any other country.
And the U.S. is not, and has never been a Christian country. I'm not saying it hasn't claimed to be. To me....it just hasn't.
The constitution needs to be rewritten. At the time it was written, not only were there 500,000 PEOPLE WHO WERE OWNED BY OTHER PEOPLE, the fricken writer himself owned at least 100 or so.
Because of desire for power...SLAVES were counted as only 3/5 a person. How's that for prolife.
I want to puke in my mouth when I read crap in history books that say, 'many colonists abhorred slavery...even slaveowners.' GTFOH.
Sure. Sure they did.
We are a selfish people. Always have been. From jump.
And by the way.
For those still reading.....
Ummmmmm. Ya'll realize there are no TRUE Americans---whatever that means---because good ol' Chris (Christopher Colombus that is) um, he found land that was already someone's land and decided it was better here and wanted it and so he took it. Really, maybe he was just too fricken lazy or confused to go where he was really supposed to be going....so this might as well do. Kind of like when you're looking for a Hardees but only see McDonalds so you just give up and give in and settle for a Big Mac vs. a Frisco burger. I mean a burger is a burger right?
By the 1600s (if memory serves me, Europeans began to flock to the colonies) PS. We weren't the U.S. yet. PSS. That means white people. PSSS. France and Spain were here too. Like those battles that were glossed over in school---we realized that they didn't just show up in "our" land to fight us right?
And PLEASE. Do not forget that Natives lived here for THOUSANDS of years before Chris arrived with his crew. THOUSANDS.
Let that sink in.
We. We were the refugees so to speak. Because we were fleeing. Looking for opportunity. Hoping to bring something more to our families.
Did you know that individuals from some countries can only come through a lottery and some countries, like Mexico, don't even have a lottery? If you didn't know that....please stop talking like you know anything about immigrants and the path to citizenship.
It's easy to dismiss PEOPLE who have either come to this country or are trying to by saying flippant remarks
'become a citizen' 'go back where you came from'
It's even easier to be on board with policies that will SHUT DOWN entry to the U.S.
But it's not right.
And it's not biblical.
It's not right.
And it's not biblical.
And don't ask me to find all the verses that lead me to believe it's not biblical. If it matters to you, you can do the work. As I recently saw a brilliant friend of mine state, 'I will not do the work for you.'
I'm torn. It makes me furious when I see folks claiming to be Christian and pro life and loving others and feeding the sheep.... but get on board with shutting down our borders. Get on board with saying hurtful and demeaning things about Muslims. About Mexicans. About refugees. Yet many of these same people have no opinion about mass incarceration. No opinion about pipelines. No opinion about lead infested water. No opinion about racial disparity in this country.
It seriously causes such anger in me. More than my heart can take some days.
But I also know that I'm called to love my enemies.
I'll let you in a little secret....
For me....the enemy isn't Muslims. Isn't Mexicans. Isn't refugees. Isn't blacks. Isn't police.
For me....the enemy is a whole lotta ya'll. Those claiming to LOVE God but really are loving the U.S. more than his Word.
But I believe that I am called to love my enemies. And so believe me, I am working on that. It is my desire to reflect Jesus as best I can with what I have.
But if you see those earrings coming out? I'd just quietly walk away.
That's what I got today.
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